August 25, 2008
August 18, 2008

Round 2

of college is upon me. It’s a new year in a new place. As most of you know, I escaped my own personal purgatory in San Antonio and headed north east to the mountains of Morgantown and West Virginia University to further my higher education. This year just seems to be getting off to a faster, better, stronger start than a year ago. I’ve already met a ton of great people through Young Life and went to an awesome church today that I envision as being a good spiritual sanctuary for me here, something I didn’t have in San An. Period. I’ve already been to church in Morgantown more times (once) than I did during my entire tenure in San Antonio. I blame myself. Part of it was the choice of people I hung around with. On the surface, the people I surrounded myself with were strong in faith, but regularly drank to a point where it wasn’t fun. Here, it’s just been different so far. The first place I’ve gone for comfort and familiarity these past two years in college has been Young Life, and while the staff people and a few others were genuine in San Antonio, I felt like there were gaping holes in some leaders personal lives that could prevent them from being there for kids to the best of their ability. Here, I sense everyone is genuine and I can feel the sense of community and bonds that they form within these friendships. My first night in Morgantown, I hung out with a leader named Meredith at her and another leader’s apartment, where we hung out with their neighbors for about 4 hours. Their neighbors were some guys involved in Inter Varsity, another organization I believe to be doing awesome things. Meredith and her one neighbor, Jed, acted like the best of friends, and I would not have been the least bit shocked had someone told me they grew up together. Instead, they had met less than 48 hours before this. I yearn for friendships like this, where things just click, and I truly believe I am in the right place for this.

I lead at a school in San Antonio for 3 months this past spring before I transferred here. Outside of club and team meetings and such, I did not see 4 out of the other 5 leaders at all. Ever. Here, there is an obvious commitment within this community to further their personal relationships in addition to their commitment to guide kids in the high school community. I’m in a bit of a goofy situation within all of this, as I am the same age as most of these leaders, and have also gone through training and all, but they’ve had a year together. But somehow, I feel I’ll catch up to this community and find a place.

On to school. At press time, I’m planning on double majoring in Religious Studies and Communications Studies. Lord only knows what I’ll be able to do with those, but ideally I can get a job with Young Life or something in music as these are two of my passions and Communications is the best way for me to get involved with music in some way, whether it be working for a venue or a magazine or something else. This one will solve itself soon enough.

As for friends, Austin is going through a transition and realizing he wants a better community within Christ and is considering coming up here for school at some point. If the rest of the year is anything like this weekend, I think he will fit in here well if he so desires too. Maxx was my true first best friend and we’ve fallen off a little recently, partly because of differences in lifestyles, but there was more to it at one point. He stopped talking to me for about a month because I was mad about something that didn’t involve him, and I almost think this was an excuse he made to get back into a party lifestyle but who knows. I really feel he will get it one day and start being responsible. He’s going to have to if he wants to get out of San Jac. If/when he does come out of this funk or whatever he’s in, I feel like him and Austin are on the same level of friendship with me. I really want this day to come. So badly. Cole is spiritually ahead of his time but I feel at current he’s too young to be up there with Austin in good good friends. I feel like we’re going to grow closer in the next few years. Andre is another one in the same grade as Cole that I would love to be closer friends with. In fact, he is the friend I most want to grow closer with for some reason. And Maxx again obviously but anyways. Kyle and I are good friends, but I feel as if we’ve been arguing about ridiculously stupid things lately and I hate the face that we’ve never really had a serious serious conversation. Kyle is really self conscious in some ways, especially with girls, as he thinks alot of them are out of his league, but he is crazy and needs to just go for it sometimes. Another thing I think plays into it is a bad breakup he had with an amazing girl last summer. She didn’t really give him closure or explanation or anything, which is undoubtedly extremely hard. I know she felt awful about it and in fact, later came back to liking him, although he had closed this door because of the manner in which things ended the first time. Maybe a third time will right this ship, as I just can’t believe they are truly done together, since I saw such beauty within their relationship. I don’t even know with this one. Joey is the friend I am afraid will die before 30. He treats his body with such disrespect that it has to hate him. He is another one I think will grow up some day, but I can’t guarantee anything, which worries me. Andy is a friend I’d lost alot of touch with and regained this past year and is another friend I want to grow closer with. His girlfriend Taylor and him are really good together, but she hates me for some decisions I’ve made in regards to a relationship with one of her friends. Things I cannot change, so I can only hope she’ll ease up on her fury someday, as I really love Andy. Callaway has got an amazing thing with Jill and has gotten back involved with Young Life. We were never very alike in hobbies/activities and such, but we have just always clicked as friends. The only thing restraining our friendship is time and distance and I can’t wait to see Chris again, as he was the first leader that ever had an impact on me and the first person I felt comfortable coming to with problems. My only other really close friend is an old man I met when he was collecting his pension. His name is Stephen. Really though, Stephen was the only other leader or older person I’ve ever really gone to for advice and such that wasn’t family and he came along at a great time in my life. Stephen was the opposite of Chris in a lot of ways to me. We are very much alike, in alot of ways we are only different in age. We click on an intellectual level in a similar way to my relationship with Chris, but I actually have things in common with Stephen. Stephen is my best friend of someone his age (also my only friend that age but besides the point). Stephen and I also talk far more regularly than Chris and I, partly due to the fact that he’s the only senior citizen with AIM. But seriously, there is nothing else I seek or nothing I dislike about my friendship with Stephen.

My apologies for the extended post, but I felt like a memorable one as I hadn’t posted for a while

Goodbye, Farewell, and Amen


Caleb Keys

August 12, 2008
August 9, 2008
August 8, 2008

Family

are behind most of my frustrations these days. My mother is a nurse who does the best with what she has. She believes in having a good time while she can. She has no faith that I have ever witnessed, and is in a loveless relationship. Deep down though, she has a good heart as well as good intentions. Personalitywise, she is me. I am her. Same person. Thrift stores, concerts, being an eternal smartass. I get 90% of who I am from her.

My father has not been a part of the picture since I was 5. We moved to Texas, he stayed in Ohio. Some people are troubled by paternal problems. I truly am not. Stepfather figures have been in the picture, none have made an impact on my life in a good or bad way. Robert is the most current and longest lasting. An Englishman and an Atheist, I get along with Robert surprisingly well for all of our differences. He once cheated on my mom for an extended period of time, but she forgave him. His son Dominic has lived with us since 2000, and is now 25 and less accomplished than most incoming college freshman.

My grandmother is the definition of a gossip queen. She is judgemental to a tee, has a faith based relationship that as far as I can tell is to further her social circle, and has never truly been in love with any of her 4 husbands. She is graciously funding my first year at WVU, but I sense that will fall through after that, and I kind of hope it does. She is already making me feel guilty about things of ridiculous proportions. She has often informed me of how expensive tuition is, yet when I come up two West Virginia two weeks early to pursue a job that would have covered room and board, she flies off the handle when I don’t get it. I chose to end my summer with my friends who I won’t see until at least Thanksgiving but probably Christmas two weeks earlier, and she belittles me and tells me I was taken for a ride. She isn’t appreciative that I would end my summer early, drive 1300 miles across the country, and try for a job that there was little chance of attaining. She also thinks I’m ignoring her when signing up for classes because most of the ones she suggests are already full (old people don’t understand technology). ThisĀ  one is done for now.

My aunt is a well intentioned Friendswood mom who is slighty too judgemental about people most of the time, but is a good person. She loves getting her way(but then again, don’t we all). She buys into stereotypes and fears the day her children or herself aren’t viewed as part of the in crowd. She also, to a lesser extent, is a just in case faith follower.

My uncle is a well to do, kind, genuine good hearted man. He is strong in his faith, puts family at the top of his priority list and takes tremendous pride in all aspects of his life, including his kids, his hometown, his childrens hometown, and family history. An avid sports nut, I have a feeling many years ago he spent more money than he should have gambling, but when you’re a lawyer, you can always be a little less careful with money I suppose. In later years, he’s taken an immense pride in the doings of his children. Overall, a standup man and someone I admire immensely.

My cousin is a typical party frat boy, but there’s a brighter light at the end of the tunnel for him than most I believe. We are good friends for cousins, but I doubt we would have ever hung out growing up were we not related by blood.

My other cousin is too young for me to have a personal opinion on, other than it is evident she grew up in the britney spears era mold.

My aunt and uncle in West Virginia are good, honest people. She worked in a factory for her entire adult life and is now retired, while he has been involved with the city for many years in many roles. He has been a police officer, detective, bailiff, mayor, and is currently a county commissioner. He believes strongly in public service and is as good of an example of politics done right as there ever was.

Their son, my cousin, is a tragic hero. He is middle aged now and still lives at home. He works on the local roads for the city and is pessimistic about the rest of his life. One time, we were at a family cemetery and he told me it felt good seeing all of the single peoples grave markers. I feel worst for him, because he is so sharp. He is smart enough to have done great things with his life, but unfortunately waits for next month’s issue of Rolling Stone and stays up to date on good music while playing video games. I truly feel for him and want the best of things to happen for him.

No other immediate family is jumping out as deserving of a mini bio, but maybe something will pop up. From time to times, I’ll go on these tell all rants and these will probably be the signature posts to which I pen. Only time will tell.

Goodbye, Farewell, and Amen

West Virginia

I’ve been in my new state of residence less than a week, and I am already growing restless. It’s not because I don’t like it. It’s because I haven’t been given a chance to like it. Until school starts, you see, I am couped up at my aunt and uncle’s house 15 minutes from Morgantown with nothing to do but catch up on internet time. So this weekend, I think I’m going to trek to Baltimore, home of the Virgin Mobile Festival, which has a stellar lineup and would be enough to tide me over until the beginning of school. I…must…get…out!

Goodbye, Farewell, and Amen

August 6, 2008

Alter Ego

I picture who I want to be often. In that picture, I see myself as a provider for a wife and beautiful children. I see myself becoming a part of the real world and taking on responsibility. I see myself growing stronger in my faith. Basically, I see myself growing up and getting it together. At times, I can see myself becoming this man. Just barely. More often, I see myself as more of the person I am now, which isn’t bad, but not what I want to view myself as for the rest of my life. I, I just don’t take things seriously enough. I don’t worry about consequences or how things make others feel. Don’t get me wrong, I’m not an all around bad person. I don’t drink or smoke or anything like that, but I’m not perfect in other areas. I feel as if I put up a facade and don’t let people through that facade. In other words, you see me on the surface, but I don’t let people past the surface. This includes my good friends, who I don’t rely on enough. Faced with situations where I could have easily gone to them for help or praying about things, I’ve ignored them. I’ve decided that ideally, we can do things on our own. But we don’t gain points for being idealists, we have to do the best with what we have. And the best I have is my friends, to whom I am sorry for not trusting/seeking guidance with more. In the future, I’m gonna make an effort to be more open with them. In the future, I’m gonna make an effort to be more of the man I picture myself being someday.

Until next time,

Caleb Keys


Goodbye, Farewell, and Amen

August 5, 2008
If you’ve never been to a foam party, I recommend it. I’ll go with you. No matter how near or far.

If you’ve never been to a foam party, I recommend it. I’ll go with you. No matter how near or far.